In my quiet time this morning, I reflected back on something I had written in a journal a few years ago. I'd forgotten all about it. As I read it, I realized, it carries even more meaning for me at this point in my life than it did back then.
It's really a prayer: Lord, Change My Story, However You Will
Lord, how often have I prayed
that you would have Your way
I say, 'Let Your will be done on earth
as it is in Heaven'; meaning,
that You should be in charge
of all that happens to me this day.
But then I so quickly set about to write
my own story, my own way.
I cast the characters, and I determine
how they should act and behave,
what I want them to do
and not do.
I develop the plot along the lines
I want it to go.
I even think through
all the twists and turns;
allowing for some adventure
but always within the bounds
of my control.
When I finish creating my story, I sit back
contented that this is how my life
should now unfold.
It is what's best; I am its author.
I imagine it needs no editing or review.
But then You, mercifully, begin inserting Your views.
You edit my plot and change my story;
the characters no longer follow
my carefully devised and appointed roles.
New characters suddenly appear.
Unplanned things begin to happen.
Twists and turns I had not considered.
It seems Your story barely resembles
the one I set out to write.
I realize I am no longer the writer of this tale.
I am instead one of the characters
in a story You are creating.
You are more than an editor of my work
You are the author of my story.
It is, as David said:
"All the days ordained for me
were written in Your book
before one of them came to be."
As I look back on my life, I realize
It has always been this way.
I write my lines,
Then You write Yours
And Your lines become my story.
And what You have written
Always turns out to be
Far better and far beyond anything
I could have imagined.
As I reflect on this, it gives me hope
even a good measure of joy,
for all of the new changes You have just added
to my story
And I find a new prayer in my heart:
Lord, change my story, however You will
not just today, but
every day after that.